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[07 Feb 2005|05:39pm]

new journal.


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[02 Feb 2005|08:30am]
fuck. shit.

pisses me off.

god. stop.

okay. 9 days.

then i get to see interpol, and meet my lover SHELBERS.

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[31 Jan 2005|12:41pm]
hm, so i havent been updating.

today im in a really sad mood. i have so many things going on in my mind right now. so its kind of getting hard for me. on saterday i have to go with my grandma to try on wigs, which is going to be a hard thing for me to do. seeing her without her hair, i dont even like thinking about it. shes the strongest person ive ever met though. she can do this. no matter what happens. i started thinking about all of this today, when mr. waver asked "question of the day". the question happend to be: who is the strongest, smartest person you know? i dont think i really even needed to think about it. the person that first came to my mind was my grandma. i dont know. i have been feeling like crap all day.

& i got made fun of all day which made it harder.

ugh. i hate bad days.
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[23 Jan 2005|01:52pm]

i got this survery from ___unsorted. i am bored. so i will do it.

S U R V E YCollapse )

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[14 Dec 2004|05:18pm]
write such pretty words. but life is no storybook. love is an excuse to ger hurt, and to hurt.

"do you like to hurt"?

"i do, i do."

"then hurt me."

bright eyes is coming. i am going. i hope my lover shelbi will go, because shes great. i know shawna will come. i remember when i used to tell people that i liked bright eyes, and conor, they used to make fun of me and tell me i was sick. well you know what, heres a big FUCK YOU(how hardcore of me)...(that was a joke).

myspace has been making me quite the busy lady. i customixe everyones. its crazy. its something to make me un-bored, thats better then being bored.


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[10 Dec 2004|09:59pm]

i was fucking bored.

Name: jessica lyn holford
Birthday: september - ninth - nineteen eighty seven
Birthplace: puyallup, washington
Current Location: same place
Eye Color: blue
Hair Color: as of now, my hair is black, with red. but my natural hair color is brownish/blonde
Height: five something
Right Handed or Left Handed: i am right handed
Your Heritage: i dont really know
The Shoes You Wore Today: black converse
Your Weakness: boys that dont want me
Your Fears: dying
Your Perfect Pizza: non-meat
Goal You Would Like To Achieve This Year: to do really good in school
Your Most Overused Phrase On an instant messenger: So, And Yourself.
Thoughts First Waking Up: "i need to straighten my hair."
Your Best Physical Feature: um. nothing.
Your Bedtime: whenever id like.
Your Most Missed Memory: the first, and sencond interpol show, and the first and second blood brothers show
Pepsi or Coke: pepsi cola sucks, it tastes like fucking shit, flush it down the toilet and get rid of it. COCA COLA
McDonalds or Burger King: neither, but mcdonalds has good fries
Single or Group Dates: i like single ones
Lipton Ice Tea or Nestea: well, both are quite good
Chocolate or Vanilla: chocolate
Cappuccino or Coffee: oh my, those are both good too
Do you Smoke: sadly
Do you Swear: yes, a lot
Do you Sing: yes, and i adore singing
Do you Shower Daily: no, but i should
Have you Been in Love: yes
Do you want to go to College: an art school
Do you want to get Married: maybe, one day
Do you belive in yourself: yes, i think so
Do you get Motion Sickness: no, i dont
Do you think you are Attractive: no, not at all
Are you a Health Freak: most of the time
Do you get along with your Parents: not really
Do you like Thunderstorms: sometimes
Do you play an Instrument: my voice
In the past month have you Drank Alcohol: no, i havent
In the past month have you Smoked: yes, i have
In the past month have you been on Drugs: no, i havent
In the past month have you gone on a Date: sadly, i havent
In the past month have you gone to a Mall: yes, i have
In the past month have you eaten a box of Oreos: no, i dont eat those
In the past month have you eaten Sushi: no, i dont eat that
In the past month have you been on Stage: no, i wish
In the past month have you been Dumped: ha, no
In the past month have you gone Skinny Dipping: no, i havent
In the past month have you Stolen Anything: no, i havent
Ever been Drunk: no, i havent
Ever been called a Tease: i hope not
Ever been Beaten up: no
Ever Shoplifted: no
How do you want to Die: i dont want to die
What do you want to be when you Grow Up: i want to be a photographer, a venue owner, and pretty
What country would you most like to Visit: spain
In a Boy/Girl..
Favourite Eye Color: any
Favourite Hair Color: any
Short or Long Hair: longish/shortish
Height: doesnt matter
Weight: i like skinny boys, but they wouldnt go out with me. but weight isnt an issue
Best Clothing Style: any
Number of Drugs I have taken: one
Number of CDs I own: a lot
Number of Piercings: i have none
Number of Tattoos: i have none
Number of things in my Past I Regret: there are many things

ew, that is so long. sorry.
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[10 Dec 2004|11:53am]
so this week was alright. it could have been better. as always.

i went to a fabulous show last night. im happy i had the chance to go to it. i wish i would have been able to see the capgun longer, since i always miss them, but for the short time they played..i enjoyed them.

tsunami bomb and alexisonfire is coming...with rise against.

this is a big deal for me. i have loved tsunami bomb forever.

im happy.

its on valentines day.
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[06 Dec 2004|01:13pm]
this weekend was alright.

we had nothing to do.

but still.

it was alright.

i think seeing picture of a car crash will be fun.

im excited.

♥jessica lyn holford
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it started today. [30 Nov 2004|03:00pm]
today is extreamly cold. i feel very sick. i miss shawna.

i tried to call her yesterday. i cant call collect from kelseys, so i was really upset.its pretty hard to go a day without talking to her. she makes my heart beat. without her, i would die.

so i got the blood brothers video to work all the way. personally, im sorry to say, its not the best.

the blood brothers are the greatest, but they could have done more to the video. i love them though.

she has someone. i was thinking about that. she just doesnt know it. its going to work for her. if she lets it. i hope she does.

i am going to cry when it snows. its far too cold.

there are two shows this weekend that i wish to attend.

1) fatum, and red light murder.

2) between the burried and me.

now, i dont know which one i will be going to. i think fatum and red light murder will be more affordable, because i highly doubt i will get barely any money. i will try, but who knows.

call me shawna.
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[29 Nov 2004|09:38am]
i am watching love rhymes with hideous car wreck right now.

the video.

its so good.

im obsessed.
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[28 Nov 2004|01:11pm]
i need to write more in this. sorry

so friday was really fun. shawna and i went to hells kitchen, to see the exploited. it was pretty fun. jason got us in, that nice man. i had a nice time, hanging out with shawna(guiles, and pankratz).

christmas is soon. i need to get my girl some presents. shawna is great, there for she deserves great things. i love her.

this is all for now.

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fight club is sex [21 Nov 2004|11:24am]
i've been feeling different

shawna and i started our day out by taking some photographs, then we trotted on over to the sea tac mall. we had a pretty good time, besides the fact that we had to stay there forever, because brian and cherie had to go to a football game. besides that though, it was an alright time. we watched this baby get her ears pierced at clares(cutest baby ive ever seen), and she cried, and cried. it was adorable. at around 5 o'clock we got picked up. as i was getting into the car, logan CRUNCHED my poor little foot in the door(and when i say little, im serious, i have very small feet, and hands). it hurt so badly, i felt like crying. it doesnt feel any better now, it actually feels much worse than before. i also stayed up all night spitting, and caughing. it was horrible, ive never been this sick.

today, i dont know what we will be doing. im thinking we are going to the sea tac mall once again, to meet up with john. but who knows. it hurts for me to walk.

my head hurts

a lot of people are saying that we might be "cute" together, but im not thinking so. i wish, hes so cool.
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[10 Nov 2004|03:59pm]
we want it.

we need it.

i dont know. what the fuck.

oh candy, yeah, oh candy yeah yeah yeah.

as a fuck son, you sucked.

what is it with me always putting lyrics on this shit.

i got to go.
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[09 Nov 2004|02:00pm]
so my brother is an idiot. he had a bunch of friends over last night, got drunk/high, then his friends went home. well, after that he stole my dads truck, and crashed it. how stupid can you get? he needs to start thinking, because this stupid shit got him kicked out of my house.

yesterday was an okay day for me.


today was horrid.

im taking pictures in the studio tommorrow. that will be pretty fun. i enjoy things like that.

shawna guiles
sorry i couldnt call you back last night. my dad started yelling at me again. i swear, my family hates me. what more could go wrong. i need to move out of there. i love you. i will call you today.

he is so great. i like him. next week i probably wont, and then ill change my mind again. i hope she can do this for me. i ♥ my sister right now.
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i have chingy stuck in my head. [07 Nov 2004|03:00pm]
Its so simple, and complicated the way you can crush me .No matter how much this hurts This is through .I get as far as your door before I get caught .I make up excuses just to touch you and I can't stop.So are we playing for keeps.These days begin and they don't end for weeks .Leave me left out of anything to do with you.Excuse me while I fall apart.Don't flatter yourself sweetheart.Let me take the wheel and I'll crash this car.Do you have to make this So hard Your so good at pretending everything is alright.Your as welcome as cancer but my door is always unlocked.

so im going home soon.

i am buying a waxwing shirt(cody and rockey votolato's band). i am also going to buy a cd.

i need new pants, shawna got some nice ones.

its amazing how much i love fight club.
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we are like the condom wrappers, used, torn up, and thrown away. [07 Nov 2004|01:02pm]
with a gun barrel in your mouth, you speak only in vowels.

you know that old saying "you always hurt the ones you love"? well, it works both ways.

ok, i think its starting to get better.
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devistator violates with dirty fingers [06 Nov 2004|06:18pm]
[ mood | sad ]

im in a REALLY not so good mood right now.

for reasons that shouldnt be. ill get over it.

.on a good note.

shawna bought CRIMES. its so great. i love it.
a lot of sexual lyrics. but what is a blood brothers album with out really sexual lyrics?

well, today is better than yesterday. lynette might be home now, but i doubt it. shes not well enough yet. but doctors or stupid, you wouldnt think so, but they are. not all of them, but some of them.

i feel like screaming. like marissa did on the oc, sort of like that. im in a sad mood.


shawna and i were thinking about how the blood brothers come up with thier lyrics.

i think they sit around in a circle drinking juice, laughing, boy talk. you know, the everyday thing. then they say "guys, we better get to work". so they start writing songs. jordan says to johnny "hey pal, what word do you have stuck in your head right this second" and johnny says "beast", and then jordan says "well, i have priest, so those words can rhyme", and they come up with which peacock is is beast, which peacock is priest. thats how they come up with them.

that probably doesnt make any sense to anyone but shawna and i. but it was funny at the time. oh well.

well, i think this is all.


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[05 Nov 2004|01:43pm]
you're not going to put me through that again.

im happier now.

im over it.


today is going okay. well, actually not.

thats all though.

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Lyn, with one n. [04 Nov 2004|03:38pm]
No, these are shades, not glasses. I drink out of glasses. - Jordan
click here for a pretty cool interview with the blood brothers, its old, but i just found it. it was pretty interesting to me.
school was actaully quite boring today. i didnt feel to well i must admit, so thats probably why. my history let me turn my poster in a day late thank god, i would have been failing that class. i just havent had any time to work on anything.
shawna guiles is my
i had a dream that i went on a blind date with paul banks, because in my dream, i didnt know who he was. anywho, we were "hooked up" by shawna guiles. it was a really wierd date though, i dont remember what happened. after the whole dinner and a movie thing(whatever we did), he rode the city bus to 6th ave, in tacoma. we stayed in a tent in the park, waiting for his band members to come get him. it was a nice dream. thats all though.
i hope that dream comes true.
and when you're fucking him will you scream dollar signs? $$$
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